Friday, 28 August 2009

Yesterday was result day. Everyone was crazily nervous but surprisingly, I wasn’t as nervous as everyone was. It was like a déjà vu because I wasn’t as nervous as everyone else, or as nervous as I am suppose to be during the exams either…and truth be told, I’m really afraid that I might be starting to not care about the important things like the results anymore.

Anyhow, the anticipation was driving everyone crazy but in the end, I guess most people were satisfied with the results. There were a few exceptional individuals who had some insane and unrealistic results! I had a few friends who weren’t exactly happy with their results. I also noticed some who had what I would call a "very bad" grade like ‘E’s and ‘F’s but they were glad anyway because it wasn‘t a ‘U’. haha… And then there was me. My results weren’t exactly tip top BRILLIANT! But it was good. I can pass for good right? But how can I take just being "good" when everyone had such high expectations for me since I started school? Since Year 8, I had already being given GCSEs predictions and by Year 9, I was expected if not all, then at least 90% A*s! I had a high expectation for myself too, although it wasn’t kept thoroughly in front of my head, because I wanted those exceptional grades! When I found out that my friends from my previous school had literally obtained straight A*s with the odd one or two As (not to mention including a brilliant AS-level grade), I was envious. I was so jealous! (sorry guys haha) And I started to wonder how it would be like if I was in my previous school instead. One thing for sure, I would’ve been a whole lot more hardworking haha. I mean, as bad as I does sound, I didn’t actually give my 100% for revision and preparation for exams and coursework. Sigh….

But saying "what if"s and recalling the pass won’t change the pass! So I guess I should be determined to do a whole lot better in college and give my 100% to everything! Yay! (boy, easier said than done when it’s coming from me hahah)

Unrelated rubbish: I had a few dreams last night but I only remember one scene from it. But when I woke up, I had a light and happy feeling….n__n have you ever had that before? dreams are fun!

Love and Peace,
Me

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